magic's in the makeup
Seems' like yesterday that my world fell from the sky,
It seems like yesterday I didnt know how hard I could cry,
If feels like tomorrow, I may not get by....but I will try, I will try...wipe the tears from my eyes...
So I've had this weird feeling looming over me lately and I can't seem to shake it off. It's like I'm waiting for something big to happen...and not a good big. like something is doomed or something. I've been full of lots of mixed emotions lately...but I must put on that happy face. I find that I can no longer turn on that "everything is perfect" face. I was so good at hiding my woes and flaws in high school. To outsiders, my life seemed like a fairytale...when it was all but perfect. Its getting to hard to mask the inner workings of my mind with polite gestures and huge smiles.
Coming home wasn't the same this time. Something's changed. I just can't figure it out yet....
I just want a fresh breath of air.....no more drowning.
Lately the word SHOPAHOLIC describes my actions to the tee. Instead of exercising like mad, I've turned to the material world to try to find some source of happiness, yet here I stand....fat hole in my wallet and not one ounce happier. No one can help me...it's all on me.
I can do it...
I've stumbled across some information that have both left me heartbroken, afraid, angry, helpless as well as optimistic. Its crazy how our spirits love to test our strengths. I've now learned that things are really going to work out as it should have been whether we planned it that way or not. I just have to accept things for what they are and just try to live life with no regrets. Regrets are what leaves us without any peace of mind.
I find myself reminscing alot lately...way into the past. Things were so much better back then...what happened?
How have things gone so awry?
I just gotta keep on going.....keep what faith I have left and hope that it's enough.
It seems like yesterday I didnt know how hard I could cry,
If feels like tomorrow, I may not get by....but I will try, I will try...wipe the tears from my eyes...
So I've had this weird feeling looming over me lately and I can't seem to shake it off. It's like I'm waiting for something big to happen...and not a good big. like something is doomed or something. I've been full of lots of mixed emotions lately...but I must put on that happy face. I find that I can no longer turn on that "everything is perfect" face. I was so good at hiding my woes and flaws in high school. To outsiders, my life seemed like a fairytale...when it was all but perfect. Its getting to hard to mask the inner workings of my mind with polite gestures and huge smiles.
Coming home wasn't the same this time. Something's changed. I just can't figure it out yet....
I just want a fresh breath of air.....no more drowning.
Lately the word SHOPAHOLIC describes my actions to the tee. Instead of exercising like mad, I've turned to the material world to try to find some source of happiness, yet here I stand....fat hole in my wallet and not one ounce happier. No one can help me...it's all on me.
I can do it...
I've stumbled across some information that have both left me heartbroken, afraid, angry, helpless as well as optimistic. Its crazy how our spirits love to test our strengths. I've now learned that things are really going to work out as it should have been whether we planned it that way or not. I just have to accept things for what they are and just try to live life with no regrets. Regrets are what leaves us without any peace of mind.
I find myself reminscing alot lately...way into the past. Things were so much better back then...what happened?
How have things gone so awry?
I just gotta keep on going.....keep what faith I have left and hope that it's enough.